Why am I doing this? As with so many others who have struggled and survived, I feel compelled to share a bit of my ongoing journey. Simply put, I'm trying to overcome something - what exactly it is, I don't entirely know. For too long I've told myself it was "fibromyalgia" that had a hold of me. "I can't fill in the blank because my fibro will flare up" has been a frequent turd in the punch bowl that is my life. But after 12 years of dealing with this roller coaster of symptoms, I've had a lot of time to look at the deeper meaning of what this "syndrome" has taught me. Maybe if I share a bit, another woman's journey can be made a little more positive and a little less scary.
So for now, I've decided those lessons I've banged my head against the wall to learn are over. Yep, just like that. My mind is made up. It's time for me to move on the to next chapter. I'm tired of this game and tired of being a victim to the vicious cycle my own body and mind traps me in. That's where "stop making excuses" comes into play. I know I can't do it alone. That's a BIG statement coming from an independent-minded Virgo. I would typically rather shove sharp objects in painful places than be vulnerable and admit I'm not perfect, but that's what it has to come down to - being human. Hmm. Imagine that. Wow, that one only took 32 years to figure out.
So you might think this is going to be a blog about fibro. Well yes, but not entirely. I don't honestly know what will end up out there in internet land, but whatever will be, will be I guess so let's get this thing started.
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